If I were to look deeper to my desire to live in NYC, I will find the same desire to practice the higher forms of paths and challenges. In some regard, nyc represents the highest embodiment of the path of art, skill and mechanical achievement. it’s not surprising that I find myself at this juncture but what is surprising is how long it’s taken me to admit it. Truth be told, within the past 3 years since the great turning of the big three zero, there has been considerably strong development in opinions and even more strategic […]

there is nothing more amusing talking about yourself as it relates to a new york times article. there was a recent article on ‘man dates’, the post fight club male bonding that is taking the country by the storm. okay, maybe just in the big cities where the non alpha non sports hetro non loser male is a class untouched by most circles. but we’re gladly toasted to our threesome man date over some excellent wine and any issue relating to the inherent ‘struggle’ that each one of us faced. it seems like a common theme in […]

it’s a great sight to behold andd yet only available during these periods of change. it’s been probably over 2 years since the last great shuffle on the flat of natoma and i suspect it will be the last time in beautiful flat. i think it is most beautiful with all the space because it was how i came to be so fond of it in the first place. i remember the first time i saw it in it’s vast glorious with only maybe two pieces of furniture and a guaitar. i felt very good to purge […]

it’s becoming readily apparent that my time with MJ is drawing near or i really need a new supplier. my last 10 experiences with it has been a bit disappointing, although it could possibly be my state of mind that baises the experience. normally, when i am tense and stress, she takes the edge off and allows for a pleasant comical relief from the density of my high speed thinking. but of late, the experience is mostly a mildly depressant with distasteful energy sensations. there are moments of bits of a more glorious experience but the meta […]

there are a few occasions such as tonight that i wish that i could have been an architect. it seems that as i learn more about the process and theories around it, i am more intrigue by the challenages it presents to the seeker. tonight’s documentary was on loius kahn, a relatively obscure but influential architect way before my time. even though the documentary wasn’t so much about his architecture but his son’s quest to find out about his father. still, some of the last interviews in the documentary were pretty inspiring. i totally understand where these […]