If I were to look deeper to my desire to live in NYC, I will find the same desire to practice the higher forms of paths and challenges. In some regard, nyc represents the highest embodiment of the path of art, skill and mechanical achievement. it’s not surprising that I find myself at this juncture but what is surprising is how long it’s taken me to admit it. Truth be told, within the past 3 years since the great turning of the big three zero, there has been considerably strong development in opinions and even more strategic actions supporting those opinions. Part of the more overt expression of thought and action comes from the confidence of doing and experiencing good natured failure and ego ratifying success. And so, I continue to express my 3, 5 and 10 year plan without much fear for the hidden train that can derail me from these lofty plans. And so, I find myself taking a sip from the 5 year plan and it’s all dandy except for the annoying 20 year plan that keeps reasserting itself. It’s not very Buddha boy of me to acknowledge the confluences of the future to my present state of mind but it’s inevitable at this advance state of future tense awareness. And so I continue to swim in the ever subtle tensions between form and emptiness.
