December 2005
shaping values
it's funny how i used to laugh at corporate mission statements and community mantras. it seem so recent and easier to be on the other side of the paycheck when the yardstick just meant producing tangible results. these days, the bottom line is still a yardstick of measurement but we're beginning to be really acutely aware on the [...]
relapsing into the darkness
i successfully failed yesterady in my bid for 40 days of simple intergrity. granted it wasn’t intentional but then again, some say that neither is love. and so in the midst of a glorious wedding adventure, the absentedness of thought deliever the fatal blow of destorying my own vows. alas, it was only 2 sips of wine but because i was not present, i totally had forgotten that i had taken a vow. all through out last week, i resisted numerous approraite opportunities to have just a little sip but i remain steadfast. in light of my […]
marking the days
it’s been barely a week since i’ve started my no substance fast and i am already beginning to mark the days. for some reason i feel like it should be easy but there have been some small challenages already. the reality is that anytime you take something away such as the free will to do whatever, there will be habitual reactions to make the first phase of the withdraw period challenaging. i always use my example of fasting for 10 days as an attestment to my will power. still, it’s hard now to imagaine the suffering that […]
November 2005
unbais advice
it’s been a long time since i’ve given anyone ‘good’ advice on relationships, esp intimate relationships when emotions run high. unfortunately, 9 out of 10 times, i am more likely to justify my own rationale than given unbais wisdom when it comes to the nature of relationships. still, i don’t think it is always necessary to operate from the point of actual details of the relationship. fundmentally, to be successful in any type of relationship, one needs to understand who we are and how well we can read others that we would like to be in the […]
40 days
in the face of addiction, sometimes one must go cold turkey to reset the system. i’ve decided to try a new experiment in self discipline in fasting from substance enjoyment for the next 40 days. apparently, the good christians do this on an annual basis so it’s no big deal but it will be my first. actually, i need to corrindate this with a food fast sometime in the next 40 days as well so that the system gets a real nice reset. the ironic thing is that most days, i don’t even have my first bite […]
the art of the mix
i am listening to one of my recentlly created mixes right now and it’s hitting a real nice groove. i forget the last time i’ve made a mix that had such a nice mellow but yet a hopeful vibe. i had intented to mix it exlusively for a certain someone but i am liking it too much to want to share with the other peeps. it’s pretty challenaging to create a great mix and so sometimes i don’t bother to try because it does require so much effort. obviously it was super more effort in the old […]
33 as a repetition
i had the wonderful pleasure of spending the dawning of my 33rd year with a few close friends. i had tried to be as non celebratory as possible but i can’t resist it too much because it’s hard to say no to some excellent french food. certainly i’ve been dreading turning ‘older’, not because i am getting old or anything but more as a stark reminder of the passing of time. time as a very limited quantity and given my lofty ambitions, it seems that there is too much to do tomorrow and truthly for the rest […]
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