there should be more moments like this, when you smile deep inside. too often days go by like minutes and it takes a hammer to force the experience into a vivid present moment. undoubtedly, her presence in my life has allow me to experience those precious moments over and over again. granted it may be due to the fact that we only get to see each other ever so often but regardless it does nothing to belittle it. from one unreasonable endeavor into yet another and to think i am still thinking small. btw, being that it’s […]

got a strange email from an anonymous user on myspace and they mention something that confirm they true nature. the email was from an old friend of my from my first dot com job back in 96. in some regards she was the first ‘city’ friend that i still maintain contact with now and then. we had our ups and downs as friends, which is a noticeable pattern in my most of my friendships. anyway, it’s one of those friends that you always make time to see because the farther away from the point of origination, the […]

by now there should be some reoccuring theme about the lack of balance in my life. to the casual observer, my life is but a continous routine of work, intense work and unproductive work. on ocassions i dabble in yoga and squeeze in a forgettable night of intoxication and repeat. i do a little meditation once in a while to remind myself about the 10 year plan and then i flirt with the opposite sex just as much to not forget about that i am apparently still an animal. on some meta level, i feel that my […]

one day i will recollect these days and i will swear at myself for being such a fool. but while i am swearing at myself, i will concurrently smile because i will probably be really content/happy that present moment. even now as i am swearing at myself for not having a life or any disposal income, i am perfectly content to ride this massive wave of super productive routines. i can’t begin to fanthom about how many hours i “work” because work as a concept has been transformed something else entirely. in truth, it is an exerise […]

i had to be a good son today and make my pilgrimage to houston to see my father while i was in the state of texas. sadly, i was still dragging my feet about visiting him at the airport and i haven’t seen in probably at least 4 years. i actually called him from the austin airport to see if he was going to be around, otherwise i could have had an easy escape. of course i am glad that i went to see him because his age is beginning to really catch up to him. i […]