i had a pretty unproductive day doing a lot of stupid errands and sweating so i don’t look like i haven’t left my computer in two years. yeah, it was good to sweat and swim away my little worries. after a couple hours of wankish work – discussing information architecture and doing ad concepts that only photographers and designers like. the people we should be catering to for the big bucks don’t care how cutting and cool your ad is – just how good you are and much ass you’re going to kiss. anyway, the meat of […]

it’s difficult to phantom that such an attitude can exist but it seems rather prevalvant to people that can even think on that level. it would seem also like a low self esteem issue that i sabtoage my own success because that level of achievement would result in the corruption of the movitation. any persons that question the basis of normal constructs in the meduim of thier expression would have to confront this issue at some point. it’s easy to accept that success is simply a valiation of that that conceptual risk that manifests but at what […]

pig72: i am going to invite her to the party in the next week or so vann : and that lasts you all week pig72: yup pig72: that’s all i need pig72: 5 mins vann : damn vann : i lust vicariously thru your lust pig72: it feels nice to not have it for some reason pig72: it spoils the desire pig72: so pure and strong

i was at yoga the other day and as usual, i linger around the studio a little longer than necessary. i take my sweet little time changing, drinking a cup or two of cold water and sometimes reading magazines that are laying around in the studio. sometimes, it’s a bit pathetic but i just do it long enough to remind myself that i haven’t lost all interest on them. anyway, i happen to open up to an article entitled ‘the power of woman’ and it’s about woman doing meaningful significant things with thier lifes. i was particularly […]

_visions of desire haunt the day on the day i turn the big 32, i found myself having a major headache. i didn’t want to make a big deal out of it because it just another marker on how fast life is flying by and how little time i have left. i don’t mind enjoying a new bottle of scot or having some excellent french food with a friend or two, but a party is too much in my face. i don’t mind a big celebration when i die but before that it would be anticlimatic. i […]