whether it is a philosphoical exercise or a deep fear of committment, i seem to be enjoying myside a bit with my with my conceptual yoga woman. i would pretty much have to be a total incompetent man to not pursue her more serioursly but i am not going to explore that line of logic. i can list plenty of reasons that ‘hold’ me back from getting it over with but right now i seem to be enjoying the process on multiple levels. maybe it’s just after my yoga high today that i am thinking sure i […]

someone great once said, maybe it was nelson mandela, maybe it wasn’t but it’s not the point. actually, after a little research, it isn’t nelson, regardless it was said to some effect – ‘our greatest fear is not who we are, but who we are capable of’. in a nutshell, that is the world that i exist in. that is what is holding us back. the human race. me, my friends and my lovers. to realize our potential means to realize our responsilbity. and that is the tall order for many of us. the responsiblity to not […]

the sheer brillance of charlie kaufman and the whimsical genius of michel gondry, wow, i haven’t seen a movie that entertaining in a long time. slightly better than adaptation and being john milkoovih because for some reason the movie hit home so much for me. when i think about my last relationship and the agnst and confusion but utter undenible joy that i experience, it feels righteous that i dig take the risk. if i look back in my entries, i am sure i can find the reason why against the face of all reason that i […]

tonight we celebrate the coming out of the sexual intellecutals, otherwise known the thinking man’s porn. some may argue that it’s just a matter of aestheic, because fundmentally porn is simply the objection of body, be it woman or women. we laid it out on the table for all to analyze and rationalize. it would be far easy to dismiss it as the cancer of humanity but even in the negivity , it serves as a counter point existence. the seed of desire, wholesome as the purity of love or indulgunce of pornogrpahy, lies within each one […]

We do not need to proselytise either by our speech or by our writing. We can only do so really with our lives. Let our lives be open books for all to study. -gandhi i was watching gandhi tonight and i cried too many times. maybe in the first 10 mins. for some reason i am oversensitive by myself but around others i am like become harden like my moms taught me how to. it feels good to cry sometimes; i need that little remainer that i am not beyond being human just yet. there were moments […]