the sheer brillance of charlie kaufman and the whimsical genius of michel gondry, wow, i haven’t seen a movie that entertaining in a long time. slightly better than adaptation and being john milkoovih because for some reason the movie hit home so much for me. when i think about my last relationship and the agnst and confusion but utter undenible joy that i experience, it feels righteous that i dig take the risk. if i look back in my entries, i am sure i can find the reason why against the face of all reason that i fly to new zealand to submit myself to a course of action beyond logic. the memory of it alone is sufficient for me because it will remain perfect in my mind. she will never age and we will never fight again. i don’t need to hold on it to move ahead in life, but i know enough to know that i don’t have to wonder if i was ever in love. ironically, i was speaking to my favorite parisian and he’s in love now and i am giving him a hard time about it. he’s actually admitting that it’s a possiblity, a scary possiblity for the likes of him and me. we’re withdrawn lads prone to over sensitive moments of joy and sadness all in the same breathe. it’s a beatiful understanding between us. this secret love hidden away because the world and no woman is ready for it yet. it’s quite melodramatic and funny because we will deny the need and existence of such secret. i think jim carrey’s character best expressed it = ‘she becomes the manfestation of my own glorous inner world, a world i am unable to express with my tiny paws’. god, the parallels of character archtypes is a bit too close to home and to be honest, if i had the chance to give it another go..what would i do. i don’t think i can answer that in this space, but i fear what my answer would be otherwise. sadly but true, i know that a woman of that nature will simply walk into my life and i will beg for mercy in no time less than it would take me to swear of my dark years of being a slave to the art. it’s far too easy to fall in love and the real hard work begins after the honeymoon.
