it depends on who and what time of day it is. some people want me to do more art. others want me to get a different career. while others just want me to get a girl and be happy. why is that people think that i live such a dismal existence because i am not jumping around with joy as if i am in love? they say, you’re working too much and have no life. you’re not paying yourself shit and you never life the house. what do you do for fun besides your 2 hours of exercise and yoga? try as i might, there is no logical explaination that will satisify any of these people, but again, i have no remorse for my current course of actions. that i remain committed to a greater course, then one of money, art, power or love. nothing worth doing is easy and certainly my life is not easy and fun right now but fuck, some people will never get it. there will always be detractors of a path unlike their own because it validates their own experience and course of action. i think the hardest pill to swallow is the one that implies that i can die tomorrow and what kind of life would i have lived in the past three years? with no kids, relationships and family, where is the cumlimnation of achievement that has been forgoed? if the culimation of achievement is what they are looking for, then i rather be a failure than live a quiet life of desperation.
