if i were to put it on relative context, i know what i am about to comment on is rather whimpy, but nonetheless challenging enough for me. i sometimes entertain the idea that i am generally not good with social relationships with others but it sounds too much like a cop out to me. yes, it’s challenaging for me to deal with ‘difficult’ persons but ulimately, it is a reflection of yourself on how you deal with these situations. i realize that this is one of my key weakness as a person as well as my role […]

refreshing but most likely short lived like my every other desire that has to do woman. as soon as i saw her last night, there was something that i was in love with but could’t exactly place it yet. but after some editing and scrutiny, i’ve decided that she looks like tilda swinton, hence my instant liking. it’s something about the andrgous and sharp facial features that tickle my fancy. also alien alike and scary in some respects but at the time, an elvish quality that is quite exotic. i gave her […]

i spoke to three random woman tonight, i know how sad that sounds but coming from the fact that i can’t deal with people in general right now, it was an effort for me. it was not so difficult as to strike up the conversation but just finding enough movivation to care about it was the more interesting story (why tonight and who gives a shit about tonight). naturally, once it got rolling it was all easy and fun. i know it’s not terriblely hard or i am that shy but it does surpise me how ‘easy’ […]

it’s been a long time since i’ve given anyone ‘good’ advice on relationships, esp intimate relationships when emotions run high. unfortunately, 9 out of 10 times, i am more likely to justify my own rationale than given unbais wisdom when it comes to the nature of relationships. still, i don’t think it is always necessary to operate from the point of actual details of the relationship. fundmentally, to be successful in any type of relationship, one needs to understand who we are and how well we can read others that we would like to be in the […]

“My love for you is to see you fulfilled in your beautiful and experiential journey.” on occasions when i take a long enough pause, i see love closer to me than i dare imagaine. for in the land of the loved, the monk is a one eye fool.