i can’t make anything of why the brightest light fades or how you slept a sleepless slumber and through the rhythm of the timeless season and you are the dark on my soul and it’s your love that i steal and you’re my cuts that won’t close and this i’m certain and this i’m certain and this i’m certain i don’t see anything through all your worries and the worst in people and you’re the builder of your own high temple and that’s the magic of your mind and you’re the reason that i’m down but you’re […]

she writes to me to tell me that she still loves me but she is engaged to her ex boyfriend. i am very sadden by her confusion and ignorance. i don’t know how to respond. i had hope she just stay in poland and live out her dreams that she had talked about when she went back to europe. but now i suspect she will come back to america and i will need to either give her no hope or go all the way. i fear that she will face much more hardships being in a relationship […]

it’s been a long time since i’ve been this ill. i am sure i got the bug last winter and to be honest once a year of illness is not bad. i’ve always pride myself on physical health but the pride is probably missed place. the fact that i rarely get sick doesn’t mean that i am healthy. the lack of sickness is not health! that’s how i been tricking myself. anyway, i am not health nut but i definitely value my sound mind and body. a sound mind is definitely debateable however. least i shouldn’t forget […]

it’s late. real late even in elvish times. why do we envy the elves so much? one must wonder after the third watching of the two towers, why the elves are the pinnancle of evolution? what if you can live forever, look young, and still kick some orc’s ass? it has it’s appeal but maybe there is something better than living for ever. for certainly, the lifetime of memories that an immotal carries would be a quite a bruden. alas, i think there is an alternative view of reality that is greater than our fanatsy for immortality.

i am in full production of prining out my work as gifts to all the lucky kids out there. this is the first time i’ve actually used the new epson 2200 printer to it’s full potential. the prints on matte paper are simply amazing. i am sure it can always be better but for something i can crank out at home, i am very impressed. it’s actually been pretty fun going through my collection of images and try to put some sort of theme together as a gift. i didn’t think too much about it but since […]