it’s been a while since my last muse, but i’ve semi finally caught up with my working life. in between fighting off a sickness, processing photos from cousin’s wedding and configuring two new computers in the office, i didn’t have much time to kick it on the keyboard. i’ve been away from the base too much and it seems like i am simply my own expectations. alas, a little meditation helps me destory those silly expectations. so, i had the wonderful pleasure of capturing my cousin’s wedding. although i would have like to enjoy the wedding and […]

i had the wonderful pleasure of enjoying the company of an old friend tonight, unexpectedly and deeply. it’s those moments that catch me off guard that force to bring my presence to my unexpected vistor that really brings a deep sense of appreciation to what it means to be a friend. fuck the true friend and best friend shit because labels just confuse me. just open up and talk the real shit. not what you had lunch today but how painful is it to be a human being. the more we can open up and face the […]

so part of my desperation to get the lady back into the states was to call an old friend of mine from my college days. the last time we spoke a couple of years ago, he had told me that he was going to be an immigration lawyer and i sorta internally laugh because i would never envision that he would be a lawyer much less specializing in immigration laws! anyway, after a couple minutes of the quick mandotory what you been up to these days, we got back into the chase of our friendship without skipping […]

12 hours later and 2 bad airplane meals and i am in the land of the hobbits. it’s way too early to tell how cool the place can be because i just hung out with the lady and had a yummy breakfast when i landed. so, my trip was supposed to be a surprise but her brother sorta busted up the secret. he picked me up from the port and mention that she had some sort of woman intutition about me coming. and course the lady tells me later that he accidently spilled the beans and was […]

blame it on my french porn star. he found the plane ticket for me and said it was a sign. there are many signs that could have been intrepretted as good or bad. but i am not sure what push me over. maybe it was the conversation i had with her the other night about what I would do if things had some logical sense. like i would have gone down there if i knew she could get on the plane with me. but i knew that wasn’t the case but the point is love isn’t logical […]