_none of the above i am experiencing one of my dreaded moments where i am not suppose to feeel excited about the possiblity, but tonight’s soft core conversation with a random german lady lead to unrealistic expectations. this is not suppose to happen because i need to go to NYC for my own sick reasons and i don’t need someone else that loves new york as much as i do. it’s fuck up really. i am not suppose to feel this way becuse SF is not suppose to feel this shitty. but alas, i had such a […]

_all directions point east i felt good about telling my family that i was moving back to the east coast in the near future. it’s been a long time since i felt this sort of excitement about a certain place. the last time i felt it was over 10 years ago when i decided about going to berkeley. being in san francisco just happened. but the desire to go to new york builds on a daily basis. part of me have already left the few and far between ladies of SF for the sea of multi ethnic […]

_fresh out of disel _only euro girls can get away with this kind of junk i usually save my favorite photos for my monk junkies. everyone else can get the left overs. the low down was that i was convinced to go to lake tahoe because there were some single ladies needing company and shallow as it it, i need the fresh air anyway. i hadn’t been to tahoe in the summer for over 5 years and i am glad i snuck in the trip before heading out to NY tomorrow. the air was gorgeous as mark […]

_the fading dream of a generation i spoke to an uncle of mine that is in the process of getting a divorce after 20 odd something years. it was weird to be having an ‘adult’ conversation with any of my family members as somehow i think they still think that i am that college kid that left and never came home. but i think the family’s perception of me and to a larger extend my father, is slowly changing as material well being leads to mid life questioning. It’s rather natural that it would take my cousin’s […]