_none of the above
i am experiencing one of my dreaded moments where i am not suppose to feeel excited about the possiblity, but tonight’s soft core conversation with a random german lady lead to unrealistic expectations. this is not suppose to happen because i need to go to NYC for my own sick reasons and i don’t need someone else that loves new york as much as i do. it’s fuck up really. i am not suppose to feel this way becuse SF is not suppose to feel this shitty.
but alas, i had such a wonderul conversation tonight that even if i never saw again that i am glad that there are woman out there like it. it blows my mind really. i am such a narrow minded bastard when it comes to my expectation on woman of this space time contimuim. i am suppose to be fed up with the woman here but instead i find myself talking to a designer that understands the life is more than a bunch of little cute babies. no, she is ambitious about being around the same engery that i so much desire int that sick place known as NYC.