_all directions point east
i felt good about telling my family that i was moving back to the east coast in the near future. it’s been a long time since i felt this sort of excitement about a certain place. the last time i felt it was over 10 years ago when i decided about going to berkeley. being in san francisco just happened. but the desire to go to new york builds on a daily basis. part of me have already left the few and far between ladies of SF for the sea of multi ethnic sirens. doing time in ny will be good for humbling my ambitions. if nothing i can go there to fail and i will still be better for it then staying here wondering why i am bored with the competition. i am beginning to understand one of my favorite quotes. the ambitious people go to LA. the smart people go to SF. and the smart and ambitious go to NY. i hadn’t really felt ambition in the last 10 years so it’s a bit surprising to sense it’s emergance. but then it’s only in the past three years that i’ve taken a complete 180 degrees in a turn of crazy events. sometimes i don’t believe it myself but when i tell people about it, they still laugh but it’s so unlike me.
most just know that guy with a wacky laughter that makes fun of life more often than not. and it gets all weird when i start talking about employees, art, business and too little time left. i guess my ambition is really more a sense of urgency. i don’t care to be ambitious to be rich but the mechanics seem awfully similar.