this was a pretty challenging holiday party because the place was just bland. it was a downtown corporate style deli so you know the economy is hurting when a fortune 500 company is having their holiday party at a deli. anyway, i finally found some inpiration after 10 miller lites.
3 min phone call is all it takes to throw me back into the emotional undercurrent. in my mind i have been convincing myself that we are not meant for each other for x number of reasons. none of the reasons are so bad in themselves but when you pile them all together in a pressure cooker, then it becomes overwhelming to deal with. more over when you pit impatience against patience, then things are rarely synchoize. when she is ready for something, i am 10 steps behind emotionally. i am a slow one only because i […]
qool at 111 minna on wednesday. where they take their art and dancing very seriously.
when you play the same cd again and again. the one that is sad and tender because you don’t want to get angry over it. it’s like having a friend tell you stories about how sad their life is and you sorta feel better and put things in perspective. i know in time the emotional impact will go away but for now it swells my mind and heart. i feel the need to be expressive. i want to take photos but writing feels as good. it’s not that simple this dictionary never has a word for the […]
no hugs. no arguments. no communication. just empty words spoken without an emotional. i don’t know why she was crying but i guess that tough image that she wants to project isn’t all that. she looked so different in her high heel snake skin boots and classy winter long coat. like she had a total change over in preparation for her return to poland. aceesories of success but i think she knows that i see right through that. like the fact that she was staying with her king fu master double ex that had threaten to hurt […]