3 min phone call is all it takes to throw me back into the emotional undercurrent. in my mind i have been convincing myself that we are not meant for each other for x number of reasons. none of the reasons are so bad in themselves but when you pile them all together in a pressure cooker, then it becomes overwhelming to deal with. more over when you pit impatience against patience, then things are rarely synchoize. when she is ready for something, i am 10 steps behind emotionally. i am a slow one only because i like to take my time and enjoy the process. alas, why wonder if i will ever have the guts to give her the url to this site. i am sure she would find it entertaining but it would be the end of any chance the relationship had in the future.