on the edge of a knife

this particular passage from the a poem written by the 2nd dalai lama is particularly relevant to my own concerns. you help me to see the great inner enemy, the I-grasping habit that sees things as real, and to see its limitless harmful effects. you also showed me how to destory it; so now everything manifest in the the sphere of perception effortlessly arises within the path of the void. yet you did not let me fall into nihilism, but pointed out to me the relevance of how all the things that appear, though mere labels, nonetheless […]

2003-01-07T00:05:07-08:00Tags: |
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public library

now that i am all poor and living the life of an unambitious entrepreur, i’ve rediscovered the joy of the public libaray. it’s of great fortunate that i am only 1 block away from this institution and really, i must utilize it more without abandon. as much as i’ve fantasize about having a big collection of books i don’t think that is gonig to happen anything soon so i better get back in the habit of being child like again when it comes to being a libaray. i remember my wonderful childhood memories of how exciting it […]

2003-01-06T21:14:43-08:00Tags: |
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revelation big sur

i can’t make anything of why the brightest light fades or how you slept a sleepless slumber and through the rhythm of the timeless season and you are the dark on my soul and it’s your love that i steal and you’re my cuts that won’t close and this i’m certain and this i’m certain and this i’m certain i don’t see anything through all your worries and the worst in people and you’re the builder of your own high temple and that’s the magic of your mind and you’re the reason that i’m down but you’re […]

2003-01-06T20:41:43-08:00Tags: |
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art of the mix

for reasons beyond me, my excitement towards music has increase multifolded in the past several months. actually, i believe the day that i went to amoeba and trade in about 100 of my CDs and got $400 in store credit was a point of significance. previous to that occassion, my new music intake was barely 2 or 3 new artist discovery in a year for the past 5 years! not to say that i discovered a lot of new artists during that music puchase marathon, but the influx of some great albums help reiginite my love for […]

2014-12-31T10:30:23-08:00Tags: |
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with love from poland

she writes to me to tell me that she still loves me but she is engaged to her ex boyfriend. i am very sadden by her confusion and ignorance. i don’t know how to respond. i had hope she just stay in poland and live out her dreams that she had talked about when she went back to europe. but now i suspect she will come back to america and i will need to either give her no hope or go all the way. i fear that she will face much more hardships being in a relationship […]

2002-12-28T16:03:41-08:00Tags: |
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