unwelcome pressure of an “unmovable” deadline lies before us now. the first in our short careers as so call artists. so call because what we done up to date is made our little safety nest so that we can practice art without the suffering that is associated with art. by some strange forces beyond our pitiful plans, we’re been thrust a project that requires us to actually think like an artist. to actually to assert our vision for judgement. in short, we have been commission to produce over 50 protriats of the our favorite city’s finest residents. […]

i can’t find the movatation to just go out to a party to just kick it. maybe it’s because i rather just ‘work’, maybe i don’t feel like i can socialize with normal people anymore. well, i know i can but i have to really try. like there’s something unnatural about it. it’s always been inside me; this quasi uninterested attitude at parties or most social scenes in general. i am not much of a small talker. anyway, a friend told me about this party tonight and i am sure it would have been a blast because […]

i am beginning to really look forward to these great conversations. conversations that only take a few sentences to cover an lifetime of experience. it’s like the blur’s quote, a the 1000 books would mean nothing to the confused and even one word would be too much for the realized. so we’re aren’t there yet but i can tell, we both knew that we’re speaking from learned experience. it’s also a really great feeling to find out about something new about someone even though you known them for such a long time. it’s refreshing and sweet. the […]

so it always seem inevitable that the issue of money and its implication come to play in the evoluation of relationships. the root of the matter is does the person that have more money have more control of the relationship? I think the answer is obvious but i don’t necessary think that the line of reasoning is always the same in each relationship. money can be use as leverage in a relationship but the question of control is a relative matter. I have never consciously use money as a means of control; for the concept of controlling […]