i understand why most senstive man to ever work for the biggest porn shop in paris can have the audicity to fly to 5 different cities in europe and america to just see a band. just a band is like saying sex is only a three letter word. the vulerbility of this man child woman singer is quite devastating to the emotional man. in his voice you can hear the strength of man, the tenderest of woman, and the hope of a child. i daresay is the man equilvent of liz fraser of the all time holiest […]

feeling a serious lack of creative juices of late. maybe it started after the whole sf faces show but getting back into the business of photography has diluted my passion of meaningful photography. most of the photography i do these days have very little connection to my personal values. from models to happy people getting married, i can’t really connect with it on a level to feel inspire about capturing it. i am beginning to feel that my deferrment of photography as a personal exploration will suffer as i get more caught in the business aspect of […]

i was just very angry with my business partner. I yelled, insulted and was just plain bitter with him for over an hour. i hadn’t been this angry since i exploded the time she accused me of looking at a model the wrong way. iconically, i warned him not to talk with me because i was vengeful and then i still proceed to give him an earful. part of me knew that my venting was mostly useless because i was stressed out and bitter. i never feel good about exploding because even when i win th arguement, […]

In LAX, decompressing from a fairly exhausting photo shoot of a bunch of Venture Kids. The combination with dealing a overly stressed creative director and getting up at 4am to do a gig that made me cancel my trip back east for my high school best friend seem almost like a farce. Sure it was straight out of the how much will you scarficie for the business playbook but I thought I had throw that one when I became my own boss. Oh, the irony is painful. Anyway, I have a feeling that this type of scenrio […]