i was just very angry with my business partner. I yelled, insulted and was just plain bitter with him for over an hour. i hadn’t been this angry since i exploded the time she accused me of looking at a model the wrong way. iconically, i warned him not to talk with me because i was vengeful and then i still proceed to give him an earful. part of me knew that my venting was mostly useless because i was stressed out and bitter. i never feel good about exploding because even when i win th arguement, i’ve taken a step backwards. sometimes i am so brutally honest about how i feel that it’s very insulting. it’s like when i say something i should maybe retract but another part of me is glad that it’s out there.
in hindsight, i suspect that parts of my so call brutal honesty is very ego driven and lacks any constructive basis. the explosion has been pending for quite some time and as much as i try to keep it in check, i knew that it was there in my subconscious. at one point in the venting it got so ridiclous that we’re yelling like we’re boy/girl friends but if you think about it, starting a business with friends is probably one of the deeper level of committments out there. Anyway, the crux of the issue is how do you rebuild trust in a relationship? i don’t think there’s anything one can say that will be an instant fix. only through much action and deeper committment to the relationship will heal a broken trust.