it’s a great sight to behold andd yet only available during these periods of change. it’s been probably over 2 years since the last great shuffle on the flat of natoma and i suspect it will be the last time in beautiful flat. i think it is most beautiful with all the space because it was how i came to be so fond of it in the first place. i remember the first time i saw it in it’s vast glorious with only maybe two pieces of furniture and a guaitar. i felt very good to purge […]

it’s becoming readily apparent that my time with MJ is drawing near or i really need a new supplier. my last 10 experiences with it has been a bit disappointing, although it could possibly be my state of mind that baises the experience. normally, when i am tense and stress, she takes the edge off and allows for a pleasant comical relief from the density of my high speed thinking. but of late, the experience is mostly a mildly depressant with distasteful energy sensations. there are moments of bits of a more glorious experience but the meta […]

there are a few occasions such as tonight that i wish that i could have been an architect. it seems that as i learn more about the process and theories around it, i am more intrigue by the challenages it presents to the seeker. tonight’s documentary was on loius kahn, a relatively obscure but influential architect way before my time. even though the documentary wasn’t so much about his architecture but his son’s quest to find out about his father. still, some of the last interviews in the documentary were pretty inspiring. i totally understand where these […]