“All music is what awakes from you when you are reminded by the instruments… Happiness, knowledge, not in another place, but this place — not another hour, but this hour.” — Walt Whitman

i am staying with one of my oldest college buddies in austin these past several days. we’ve had a wonderful time catching up and talking about the bigger questions that the mid life crisis brings about. he just joined the fatherhood club and i am sure he is going to be an awesome dad. i told him of my own insecurities about being a father since i’ve had just poor role models and having severed from a marriage so early in my daughter’s life. i am sure it’s all going to be fine in the long run […]

i decided to delete my account tonight. as part of my ongoing effort to reinvent myself this year, i wanted to shed away my past. not to suggest that i won’t ever have a fb account again but it will be different incarnation. i had previously shed about 300 people of the friends list and even then, i was still found myself hiding people’s broadcast. sadly, 97% of the stuff is just noise and hearing family gossip through fb, well, i think there was a reason i moved 3000 miles from everyone. if people want to […]

i forgot who i was talking to exactly but i was telling about my photographic memory and history. for the most part, i am not particular proud of my ability to remember things. sometimes i think it’s because i look forward too much so i don’t use the muscle of memory and it remains weaken like a malnourished child. even though i’ve been an ‘active’ photographer for the past 10 years, most of my professional work is as forgettable as chemistry in high school. often i think no matter what the work, some boring corporate event or […]

so since janurary, i’ve given the online dating thing a serious effort. it’s been an interesting experiment to say the least. on paper, it would seem like such an ‘easy’ thing given the you just just on your computer and filter out all the the stuff that don’t interest you and then you just go after the interesting one. but the sad reality is that i filter out 98% of the profiles and the ones i am interested in, i am part of that 98% that gets filter out. i read an interesting article on cnn, aptly […]