i just been past hour browsing a bunch of successful artistic photographers. part of me envy their experience and part of me dig deeper into my chosen path. sometimes i am torn with using photography for creative expression and using it as a means to an end. i know they can exist in the same space but i trick myself to believing if i don’t touch the creative impulse that it will stay pure. i think to myself that a ‘true’ artist simply expresses his/herself without any need to be validated by money or fame. in some […]

i was browsing my sms history and found this picture that uma’s mom sent me when she was about uma’s age. no one has ever asked me if i think about my love for uma is somehow still connected to her mom but in case they did, i would say there is still residual love there for sure.

I guess before the month of dec of 2014, i didn’t write much either. i found a google doc with only about 5 entries so not super productive year. i am debating if i should set a goal of writing X amount of entries this year. for some reason it’s funny how i always like to set some numerical goal when i start a new habit and overtime, the numerical value loses value. it’s like you use the numerical value as a handicap until you no longer need the handicap. for the addictive mind like mine, it […]