yoga and mediation

been pretty diligent with both activities but i am still tweaking it to get better results. feeling great that the habits are there but the practice isn’t as deep as i would like. been reading up on yin yoga which i am liking more. when i first tried it was it felt so boring but now that i understand the framework and appreciate that even though yoga is a form of yin activity compared to my yang activities of running/cycling, the yoga that i have been practicing is still very yang in some regards. so i am beginning to feel that i do want spend more time with yin yoga as it addresses harmony in the body deeper than the other styles. one of my yoga is to start some sort of home practice since my yoga studio is in the city and i don’t want to the city all the time. as for the meditation practice, i know that it always feel better in the morning and i am still struggling with waking up early to do it. and when i do, i get side tracked by making tea and start thinking about work. so tonight, i am experimenting with making tea at night and putting it a thermos so i have access to the tea right away in the morning and have no excuse to go down stairs!

the year in data

well, i should have grab my running data from strava before the switch of the new year but i forgot to and all i got is 808 total miles for 2014. which is about the same as 2013 i think. but difference this year is active time. i compile a bunch more with walking jonsi and yoga so overall 2014 was very successful fit year. i basically barely sick once and it was pretty mild at best. at this point, i am content with the mileage and although i can crank it up, i don’t see much point in it except to prove to myself yet again, i can do some physical goal like run a 50K or 50 miler. after enough physical accomplishments, i know myself enough to know that i can achieve it but to what end. i did read that doing ultras was a more ‘spiritual’ experience because after doing a marathon, most people think you’re crazy for going anything beyond that. so those types of distances are not for the admiration of your fb friends because you’ve earned it already. anyway, i think a few races a year with the current mileage between the bike and run and i am comfortable with riding that plateau/peak for the rest of my life. to be honest, now, i think about how deep i can really go with the all i can eat approach to yoga. for the first time in my life where i pay a month due to gym/yoga studio, i am try to go as many times as possible in a week. so in a month, i am hitting yoga at least 10-15 times, which is 1000% times more than zero for the past 5 years. even though it’s only been 3 months since i’ve done this unlimited yoga format, i feel like i’ve haven’t miss a beat much since i last did yoga. i mean i am super tight in certain areas due to the running but overall, i am comfortable with most of the poses. i am feeling confident that with continue regular practice in the next year, i may actually go up a level in the yoga practice. that will be a nice first with yoga for sure. the yoga and meditation is so highly complementary, it’s freaking awesome.


It is the general Buddhist procedure that one’s own pleasure and pain are acheived by oneself and not from the outside, and that, therefore, sentient beings themselves must understand and implement practices to bring about their own happiness. Thus, the most efficacious way to help others is through teaching what should be adopted in practice and what should be discarded from among current behavior. There is no way to do this unless you come to know all of the topics involved in what should be adopted in practice and what should be discarded—you must become omniscient. As mentioned earlier, there is no way to accomplish this except by removing the obstructions to omniscience, and one who has overcome, utterly and forever, the obstructions to omniscience is a Buddha.

Teachings by His Holiness the Fourteenth Dalai Lama

victory rose

it’s been a very long time since i felt the intensity of joy and fear all mixed up to an undoubtedly unforgettable experience. then again, most of these days are spent in a fairly forget experience of seemingly endless toil. intense experiences such as these do shake the foundation of experential construct. it’s far too easy to give into the fear of ill fated perceptions and let reality degenrate to a series of endless bad jokes. but i past the test again with somewhat of flying colors, if not, then at least with great tears of joy. these lovely boys from iceland will be my grateful dead. it seems that i have quite a successful record in being a very certain state of expereience.

the experience still lingers even though many days have past. the mind state is felt to disgest on the fine line between all these seemingly contradictory feelings. between fear and joy, love and hate. it quite ridicously amazing that the power to recreate reality is easily accessible to all that is willing. and it is this great teaching is tested time and time again in these seemingly counterproductive exercusions into the realm of no control. take this experience and sustain it in a great sober awarenss and i fancy that spiritual enlightment is not such a far fetch concept. i am acutely aware that these exact sentinmentals were explored in the 60s counter culture and what of those learnings? invaribly, teachings such as these are best experience and throughly examine on the truth of such compositions. many have travelled this road before and many shall falter on this dangerous path of loosely defined constructs.

my yogic practice is near a low point. only habit keeps me going as i am hitting a wall of progress in form. obviously perfection of form is not the point of the practice but only serves as a mirror of commitment as form. the next level is near and i yearn to commit without over committing. on a side note, although losing some steam, my meditation practice is still going on. currently barely hitting a 70% regualr basis rate but it’s most more progress than most of my post retreat attempts.

a taste of drama

i was suppose to be just an innocent bystander in it all but i became less than innocent this week. i wouldn’t go as far to say that i was a participant in the conversation but somehow i felt that he influence something that i shouldn’t not have. in all my seperate converations with each respective party, i tried not to take any side but adovcated honesty and take a longer term perspective on the situation at hand. i suggested trying to understand the root of the ‘issue’ and not simply react to the emotional upheavals. for the most part, i didn’t particularly feel comfortable advising as such because i fear that it may cause more short term harm than really help on any long term basis. for the most part, each respective party already had set notions that would have manifest eventually regardless of my involvement. either way, being witness to much suffering, the seed of singlehood grows larger.