sometimes i wonder if it is really the culture of this city that makes it truly difficult to meet people or is it just really me. as a matter fact, i think it’s the combination of those two factors that lead me to give up for the time being. i still have a picture of her on by my bedside but when i look at it, i don’t feel pain or sadness. i just hope that she will be okay and that she will benefit from our short time together. i think i need to start preparing […]

there’s no rational explantion for me to justify a trip to europe at the height of my material poverty in the past 5 years, but the decision was nonetheless important in my belief of the future. i remember the days of college when i paid rent with my credit card and carried a 5 digital debt most of my twenty something. but having achive the debt free status sometime ago, i find myself in a fimilar situation. and today, i made that commitment to the future again. no matter how deep i dig that hole, i believe […]

this is one great movie. sexually grogeous, complexity shady yet simplisticly gorgeous. all the drama of life in a nut shell – art, death, life, sex, woman, and redemption. maybe i can be a director in my next life time.

just watched a documentary on the american avant garde artist and he rocks the house. granted i don’t know about the lives of other artists but i am pretty sure man ray is going to be one of my favorites for a while. i think it’s his attitudel, philosophy and process are what i find most appealing. no doubt my ego is probably trying to validate it’s own greatness by association with an artist such as he was. anyway, definitely getting more understanding and ammunication into the life of an aritst and why it is a sacared […]

I don’t know it it’s my attitude towards death is so different from everyone else in my family or if I am really just insensitive. I’ve refrain from my any commentary on my view towards death in general as I would dig a hole much too deep for a short stay. I can’t talk about death without discussing the meaning of life. It’s interesting to see the variety of belief systems that come into light in a tradegic event such as this. I was slightly surprised that they were going to have a Buddhist ceremony in this […]