_more sexuality with duck tape than most with nine inch nails an old friend called me tonight and did a major yank on my chains. not only did i give into when i’ve tried to deny but i was ever so grateful for friends like him. yeah, i’ve been having a lot of mental yanking lately. jolting myself out of self constructed frameworks that binds ever so more tightly than any external force. it’s good to realize that it’s still possilbe to surprise myself and remind myself of the nature of city of life. so much to […]

so, i have to write a management summary because the bank wants to know if they can trust us with a couple hundred Ks. i guess it’s a positive thing that they’re asking us for more information but it’s also one of those exercises that made me cringe a bit. Writing about yourself in the third person is funny to begin with but to pump it up even more so those cold heart bankers really believe in you is even a greater farce. nonetheless, it is an exercise in intergrity and stretching the ‘truth’.

_don’t go to yoga because of her. apparently, i am beginning to routinely show up every monday afternoon class because of her. not her in particular but a woman like her. maybe it’s just me being retarded about the whole situation but i don’t mine just seeing her briefly once a week. anything more would require too much committment from my committmentless pit. either way, it’s generally really helping with my yoga practice. i’ve been particularly found of this type of style (jakumati or something like that), as i sweat as much as i do in bikrim […]

_what if i knew i had say, ‘how may i know you?” the movie of the same title was suprisingly interesting and entertaining, although the theme has been repeatedly explored in hollywood. the introduction of the whole chaos theory and the butterfly effect is noteworthly in destorying the fallacy of the power of change in hindsight. certainly, the power of the butterfly effect is a foundation of much buddhist prescriptions for curing the mind of itself. through all these seemingly insignificant pure thoughts and actions, one has the power to set forth a chain of actions that […]

so, i had wonderful pleasure of spending a friday evening in a part of the city as foreign as the french. make no mistake, it was no accident that we ended in the neighbor of the well lubricated. i think it is good practice for the soul of my types. entertaining to say the least but the most valuable lession of the evening was a recurring theme in my life. stubtley has never been been my strong suit nor my ability to detect it. what comes as a surprise to me on too many numerous outings is […]