it was a bad start to a retreat when we got a ticket going up to the joint. and when we got there at 8pm and had some dinner at resort’s restuarnt, we knew it was going to be a long painful week. in other words, the conditions weren’t auspices at all for a fruitful retreat from the maddness in our minds. i guess i could point out all the reaons why i didn’t meet my expectation but i know better to over analyze farming scenarios like these. although the weeds weren’t pluck as much as my […]

i guess the last time was at a retreat was 6 months ago and i need to go real bad. my attention span has been totally short circuited. i can barely meditated for more than 20 mins and 2 or 3 times a week at most. far cry from anything consistent and meaningful. at least i am sticking with my committment to attend two retreats a year. at some point, my yoga and meditition practice will finally ‘click’ and doing every day will be as natural as taking a piss. interestingly enough, i feel like most of […]

i was reading an article about sigur ros a couple of days ago and something really really stood out at me about what they were saying about their music. how do you categorize and title something that is meant to be experience not desribed? to describe it is to destory it, the very meaning of the message. so when they released their last album without any titles on it, i dawned on me why i like have the title of ‘untitled’ in my sig. on the ego driven level, it’s the desire of the ego to go […]

i have been experiencing a number of interesting phenomenas post late night meditation. i am almost able to transcend extreme tiredness and enter a dream like state of meditation. it gets real trickey between that state and what rincophe stated as ‘stupid meditation’. i definitely experience stupid meditation numerous times so i understand how to differeanite it from current expeirence. although morning meditation would help more during day conscious expereiences, i seem to be falling to a late night meditation pattern to has major impact on my dream state. although i never been a heavy sleeper before, […]

i just spent the last 30 minutes checking out this website; only interesting when you’re ready for it. the website is a straighforwad example the unity of all the mind/heart/body theories out there. we all describe the essence over and over again and now i am beginning to understand why my crazy slumlord is going wankers over the shit he is experiencing. he shared a number of his recent experinces with me tonight over some fucking rare ass yummy steaks. on what hand, i am laughing my ass off because the way he tells the stories is […]