so, i was reading a tribute to henri carrie besson – the father of photojournalism – and apparently in his later years he studied under a tibetan buddhist teacher. this made me smile greatly of course as it not only makes sense that ‘the decisive moment’ require a presence that is all too often the center piece of the buddhist teachings. as much as i can try to deny the presence of the teachings in my overcommittment to the business concept, the littlest reminders of the teachings bring me back to a place that makes me tremble when i think about how much there is left to do in the realm of the unmeasurables. the focus and effort at this juncture are the mere prerequistes to the unparallel ‘work’ that comes with the submission of the conceptual self.
in yoga class today, i made some glorious progress towards the expansion of my mind body framework. it was the first time in the week that i had to force myself to be so present that if i wasn’t presnt that i could literarly destory my body. it’s definitley has been increasingly more difficult for me to be present and yoga has been a great barometer of my ability to achieve such a state. i really need to do a retreat is what it comes down to. i have lost considerable grounds on that front and it’s quite obvious to my meta mind.