it’s the darkest hour of this long distince relationship. i guess i shouldn’t be surprise the relationship did a 180 within less than 2 weeks. from i can’t wait to get back into the states to my brother is going to pick my stuff in january. the funniest thing is that this all transpired through emails and IMs. she’s pull this string before but this time, it’s so much easier to just let it all go. she in her ‘you don’t support me enough and you’re shaping my opinion too much’ mode so it’s almost useless talking to her. If i just say, ‘yes, i will take care of you and the money is in the mail’, it would calm her down until the next drama. well, one thing for sure is that none of this is news to me. I understand the nature of this relationship and i had chosen to accept it as it is. But she lacks the patience and foresight of things to come and that is why she is willing to part with it.
If i were to ask myself, ‘did i give enough into this relationship?”, i don’t think i would feel any guilt about my answer. i have given this relationship much more than i have given any other relationship but it’s still not good enough for her. My patience has been tested and it wears thin now. Unfortunately, communication at this juncture is more damaging to the condition of the relationship.