so my lady friend calls me up at 10 am today when i am suppose to pick her up at the airport at noon. at first i thought she had landed early but the most unexpected worse news came to my suprise. she was being held at immigration. she had over stayed her visa last time and they found evidence of working in the US on a tourist visa. it wasn’t good. i was actually surprised that she was going crazy but i knew it was tough for her. she had to shoot a 2 weddings this coming sat. i didn’t know what to say. i was totally shocked and we were only able to talk for about 2 mins. i was all happy that she was coming back today and i was going to get her flowers and all. so at the point, they didn’t tell her exactly what they were going to do to her. more intergoration and shit.

4 hours later she calls and tells me that they deny her entry into the US. she is going back to NZ in 4 hours. i am on the verge of crying because the situtation sucks. sucks because we are this close to being together. it felt like fate just ripped it apart at the last second to prove something. she is all stressing about all the implications of our living situation and her wedding clients. i am trying to tell her that it will work out and not stress too much. it sounded like they didn’t totally fuck her over and said that she can still come back on a more strict visa. i feel like drinking i know it’s not going to help. i am trying to breathe slowly and get some fresh air. i thought all the drama was going to be more or less over for a while. alas, more opportunities to practice what i believe in. to not be reactive and be control by silly stuff like this. hA. we will say how long i can go before i hit the scot.