it’s been a while since i have written and the only real excuse is that i’ve been catching up with my lady friend. catching up would be an understatement but alas, my life has taken a drastic turn and sometimes i wonder if i am doing the ‘right’ thing. within one week, not only did we make up, but she has moved in with me and things only get more interesting from there. i am not so scared that it’s moving so quickly but i’ve always wanted to get the relationship another chance but didn’t want to […]

_baby smurf i know alot of my buddies going to kick me in the ass for all the bitching i’ve done over her and yet still fall back into again as if nothing happened. i guess in some sense what happened was a good thing in a the big picture because it made us both realize how much we really dig each other but because of miscommunication and unrealistic expectations, we fucked it up pretty good. alas, when i saw her again, everything was forgiven and it felt like we just meet each other for the first […]

confusion reigns again. her confusion has become my confusion. her pain has become my pain. of things that were and things that could be. the disparity is great between what was and can be but not uncrossable. i fear that i will hurt her more if we are to continue. despite all that i have said and gripe about her, deep down something has taken root. it was so close to being uprooted from my life but now, the seeds have reconcilation have been planted.

i went to see “ayurveda, the art of being” last night at the red vic and it was pretty inspiring. the holistic science of medicine that originated in india is the basis of many other holistic health systems such as tibetan and chinese actupunture. i’ve had a cursory knowledge of the concepts within the science but it was great to see actual real life examples how the science is applied to heal people. one of the most interesting part of the film was in regards to that the idea that disease originate in the mind and if […]

i thought i give my photojournalistic eye a chance at a “real” world event, a peace rally/march. i think the thing i don’t like about media events is just the pressure of every photographer trying to get into position and shit. sometimes i think as people rush to the main picture opportunity, i like to look around closer else where to capture a secondary scene. obviously i was doing this for a living i would probably run to the near photo opp position but today i just casually walked around and was intentionally not trying to be […]