there’s no rational explantion for me to justify a trip to europe at the height of my material poverty in the past 5 years, but the decision was nonetheless important in my belief of the future. i remember the days of college when i paid rent with my credit card and carried a 5 digital debt most of my twenty something. but having achive the debt free status sometime ago, i find myself in a fimilar situation. and today, i made that commitment to the future again. no matter how deep i dig that hole, i believe […]

this is one great movie. sexually grogeous, complexity shady yet simplisticly gorgeous. all the drama of life in a nut shell – art, death, life, sex, woman, and redemption. maybe i can be a director in my next life time.

just watched a documentary on the american avant garde artist and he rocks the house. granted i don’t know about the lives of other artists but i am pretty sure man ray is going to be one of my favorites for a while. i think it’s his attitudel, philosophy and process are what i find most appealing. no doubt my ego is probably trying to validate it’s own greatness by association with an artist such as he was. anyway, definitely getting more understanding and ammunication into the life of an aritst and why it is a sacared […]

I don’t know it it’s my attitude towards death is so different from everyone else in my family or if I am really just insensitive. I’ve refrain from my any commentary on my view towards death in general as I would dig a hole much too deep for a short stay. I can’t talk about death without discussing the meaning of life. It’s interesting to see the variety of belief systems that come into light in a tradegic event such as this. I was slightly surprised that they were going to have a Buddhist ceremony in this […]

i don’t think i’ve ever gotten the call before but i guess it was only a matter of time now. i was expecting that i would hear about my grandma first but it turns out that it will be one of my cousins. in an instance when i got the call, i knew that it was tragdic because i recognize the voice of in an asian man showing his emotions. it’s a cold monotone type of voice that smells of hidden weakness. and so my cousin mattter of factly reports that the first cousin that was born […]