i was suppose to keep a journal leading up to my vision quest and as usual, i am pretty unprepared for the entire experience. mentally, i am dreading going for many reasons but spiritually, i know i need it. i was suppose to do a medicine walk as well where i go from dawn until sunset wondering through the nature world and see what draws my attention. it made it to my calendar but it keep getting pushed and of course the day i scheduled it, it was pouring cats and dog. at this point, i am […]

i was showing uma a video i made a few days ago when i went running in the rain. it wasn’t really a downpour, as i am not that hard core. i definitely wanted to chicken out a few times where i went outside and came back, thinking that it would be silly to run these kind of conditions. rain itself isn’t that bad but combine it with bitterness windy cold and it makes you think twice. so i did think twice but i finally stop thinking about it and did it. of course, once i am […]

i watched a video recently about this guy that rode his bike from the northwest down to patagonia. in short, his message was routine rots away the mind’s joy of expression. it’s one of those half truths because it’s probably true for most unaware persons but maybe not so much for the advance self awareness people. being in between, my break from the routine for this year is epic trail run adventures. i’ve already eye two that i really want to do but given that i’ve sign up for a marathon this year, it may be my […]

I seek to go alone and be naked of my daily comfort into nature so i may rediscover the strength that has been forgotten. I seek to let go of the habits/beliefs that no longer serve me. I seek to let in all of the available teachings/support that the universe has to offer.

For the past 3 years since my divorce, i have half heartedly lived my life. Despite financial success and rewarding career as a business owner, I struggle with the idea of being alone again. It is not something that is a heavy burden but […]

there is no doubt that i’ve lived a very comfortable life for the past 20 years. i don’t think i have really ‘struggle’ since i left college. life was on the upswing and now i am feeling the entrapment of the comfort. in the past year, it has gone to level of excessive comfort and i know the downward spiral has started. granted my divorce had been quite an emotional struggle but i felt like i came out of it pretty unscathed. i know it’s not entire true but i’ve been feeling really tired of this comfort. […]