it seems to happen enough for me to question the soundness of my opinion. sometimes i think i am full of shit and i want my friends to call me on it but it doesn’t seem to be the case. from my point of view, i seem to have a lot quite strong opinions on matters by which i have little experience with. sometimes i feel a slight pang of regret after advising my friends on these subject matters but it goes away pretty quickly. at the end of the day, i don’t think i am really […]
in the past month, i’ve come to a conclusion that will save myself and hopefully take the company to the next level. although i don’t know if it will actually pan out, considering the challenage of finding someone approraite to ‘replace’ me as the head cheese, i am very much embracing the idea on numerous levels. i think after watching the power of myth, it became apparent that i wasn’t following my bliss. it’s not so black and white because as i still have the problem with the concept that is it the ego that is following […]
sometimes the intensity of the toil makes me question the process and journey. there are very few people that actually appreciate and support the level of commitment that i have put into this great endeavor. it’s easy to bitch how taxing the process has been and even in the seeming success that we experience, it feels half empty. once in a while i have a good conversation with my over the hill art buddy (41 is definitely too late to do anything significant, don’t you think?) and we consider the alternative to our lifestyle as it is […]
“Marrying means to halve one’s rights and double one’s duties”, or even more drastic: “Marrying means, to grasp blindfold into a sack hoping to find out an eel out of an assembly of snakes.” –Arthur Schopenhauer the seed of ignorance in the greatness of genius or is it the glory of genius in the sea of ignorance?
in times of need, i consult the bible known as in the words of my perfect teacher. tonight, i randomly open up a chapter and lo and behold, i find a most appropriate text. i have met a sublime teacher, but let myself down by my negative behaviour. i have found the best path, but i wander on precipitous byways. bless me and all those of bad character like me that our minds by be tamed by the dharma. a series of seemingly unrelated circumstances have resulted in a potential turning point in my mind state. heavy […]