although it’s a pretty exhausting experience, i am getting a second wind to express my first impressions before it’s lost in a post processed bin. generally, many of the concepts are pretty fimilar to me but the context has been modifified to be more easily experience first hand. i certainly appreaciate the ‘break through’ aspect as it very much parallels the experiantial wisdom of buddhism. ulimately, that’s the real power of the workshop is for people to really experience the deconstructions of their stories and how it limits their present moment. the past does not equal the future as some pundits would suggest. i think what surprises most people is how deep their illusions really are about who their constructed themselves to be. most of it is without their own awareness of these constructs and patterns so they are forever bind into the stories. in so much, i can recall one of my own ‘breakthroughs’ in college when i forgave my father for leaving my family. i remember being a bit bitter about not having anyone to support me through college and being on my own but once i accepted that he did it for reasons beyond loving me or not, i felt very much more empower to take control of my life. and even now, as i understand his movivations even more, i can even appreacaite the strengtht/courage for him to follow his principles. same action, different context. it’s definitley good stuff and towards the end of the night, i finally a nice little insight into my own behavior. it was actually the very answer that i came to the forum to shed some light to.


in terms of ‘rackets’ aka the blame game, it was made evidently clear to me that i was in this mindset with my business partner. it was the domination of my ego and righteous that has cause my relationship with him to deteroriate to very frustrating level. granted, there are both sides of the equation but i can definitley take the responsilbity of creating a hostile enviroment for us to be able to resolve it in non threatening manner. still, i don’t know if we can necessary resolve it without the new langauage of possibbilty that i have acquire tonight but i can certainly see how my racket has taken the enjoyment out of my life and process. yeah, no doubt i am working on defusing my ego but it was good to see how it manifest itself in a new light. the sublties of the ego is ever so cleaver so that sort of insight alone was the price of admission.