it gets lonely in the studio after 7pm. on most nights, it’s me and my two roommates banging out the next great milestone. but lately, it’s mostly been me, with the music very loud. it keeps the lonelyiness at bay although there isn’t really any time to feel the lonelyiness. between all the gear shifting, from photo processing, to coding, to IT trouble shooting, to thinking about all the things I want to do after all the daily grind is ‘complete’. part of my movivation to push myself is to reach a business level where i can hire someone else to deal with the daily grind. although much progress has been made in terms of division of specialized labor, i am still knee keep in high level tedious activities. certainly, i can learn to meditate on this kind of activity but it hasn’t been particularly sucessful in any form of meditition. another side effect of me being too focus on these tedious activities is that the culture of the workplace is severely suffering. besides the occassion small talk and low brow laughter, there isn’t really a sense of unity and spirit in our daily activity. there isn’t a cheerleader to rally the troops so to speak. i am too busy in my world and i suck at being a cheerleader. i can talk about it on a high level but it’s entirely different to movivate people to perform at higher level. oh well, things can always be worse. so i am going to stop there.
