i do find it strange sometimes that i rarely write about my business considering i’ve been so much time in the past 14 years being immersed it. partially, i think i keep this space free from that because it is a small counter balance to all the times i do think about the business. i had dinner with an old friend last night and i was telling him about the ‘turnaround’ moment around my relationship with the business. simply put, i did that responsibility for my own frustration and have slowly been turning that frown into a big smile. even though it doesn’t really feel like a struggle anymore to just survive, there is still a tension of me wanting to let go of it more. i am partially worry that more success will really get to my ego and i will lose more sight of my original intention. i tell my friend and myself that i want to use the business as a vehicle for doing good but i am feeling that is more talk than action. anyway, i am being passive right now about making a pivot in my path. i know what i should pivot towards but the ego is subversive.
