True compassion is not just an emotional response,
but a firm commitment based on reason.
Therefore, a truly compassionate attitude toward others
does not change even if they behave negatively.
Through universal altruism,
you develop a feeling of responsibility for others:
The wish to actively help them overcome their problems.

-His Holiness the 14th Dalai Lama

it’s very late and it’s way past thirty two now. i tried to avoid as much as i can the birthday thing but i failed miserably. there is one major thing that i learnt this year is that there is too little time left and birthdays are only a remainder that i don’t have enough time. certainly, it’s not about how much you accomplished but that’s not what i am talking about. time, that is no doubt the most precious commodity in this stinkin life. the sooner the kids figure that shit out, the better they will be off. sadly, i don’t think most people figure that out until there midlife crisis at earliest and than there are those exceptions that most of the people i know. certainly, even with the folks i know that are aware of this time factor, i question how much it shapes there daily life. it’s the difference between understanding it on an intellecutal level and actually living it. i am one of those people now and i must admit the discrepancy between the intelllecutal understanding and the practice is sickening. that is the crux of the tension and self hate.