i am approaching one of those decisions in my life that will be remembered as one of the most glorious decision or it will be i day will long to forget. actually, being a secret romantic, it has cross my mind that i should just hop on the plane and go marry my lady friend and do it in the flair that makes a young existence remember. if i wanted to go the unconventional route, than it doesn’t get more unconventional than getting married in a foreign land, or the land of the hobbits! on a rational level, i need to do a lot more research to figure out if it’s worth the 2K and two weeks off to do it. certainly this route is the only semi guarntee that she will get back in the states. on an emotional level, there is no doubt that i think this would be the coolest and crazy thing that i want to do.

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the fact that i am shooting both of the weddings that she was suppose to shoot this weekend definitely is a matter of consideration. i could use the funds from those weddings to do the deed and not feel too bad on a financial level. either way, i need to decide asap, like within the next couple of days because tickets and time is running short. i guess listening to the cd that the blur made last night was also a tear jerker. i felt really bad that i am all talking about love and he is trying to let go of a very sexy relationship. like he said, and “tell your mother SATAN!!”. yeah, sometimes i need to surprise myself.