so after watching a documentary on david lynch entitled ‘pretty as a picture’, i realize that he is probably the only artist that simply rocks my world. he is the ultimate artist because he can integrate all these different arts to masterpiece that is so much greater than the sum of all its part. not only does he make great movies with brillant musical composition but he also paints and does photography! shit, he probably cooks a mean dinner as well. and i am sure there’s plenty of artist sthat can do the dance and be all […]

i definitely think i can get into this more than just sitting in the home office all the time. let’s see what wrong with this picture: fast internet access, tea/coffee, city life walking past you, interesting people to look at, conversations if so desire, and sunlight. and of course a sexy notebook with tons of good music. yeah, the mobile high life, who needs office space! anyway, i am in a neighborhood that i probably don’t care for too much but collow hallow has it’s charm. the yuppie ladies looking all happy in shopping heaven. that’s all […]

sometimes i wonder how on a relative level that my state of mind is so far from the state in which i aspire to. the gap of disparity between the higher self and the confused self is so great that the higher self begins to doubt if it is really any higher. that is the essential point of this inquiry. if extinction is not the point of the exercise than does mere acceptance is sufficient in it self? questions to which intellectually already know the answer but lack the conviction of experience. it is a fundmental problem […]

in the darkness the emptiness tastes like dirt the pure orangic kind that smells wonderful and wholesome in the emptiness her presense is light light as the only shining star on a dark night wish as i may resentful as i dare bitter as i feel empty as i desire all these states of being only inherently push me further from the truth that binds emptiness to completeness

the internet made my night tonight. i discovered a new band through my current idols, lamb! i was reading a newsletter they had sent out and they were talking about their hightlights and lowpoints of 2002. Anyway, the both of them listed this singer that i had thought was liz fraser’s boyfriend, but i suspect that it’s not the case. the name looks very similar to liz’s boyfriend but i think it’s a different bloke. anyway, maybe i am being a little over the top because i had a little too much single malt but nevertheless i […]