sometimes i wonder how on a relative level that my state of mind is so far from the state in which i aspire to. the gap of disparity between the higher self and the confused self is so great that the higher self begins to doubt if it is really any higher. that is the essential point of this inquiry. if extinction is not the point of the exercise than does mere acceptance is sufficient in it self? questions to which intellectually already know the answer but lack the conviction of experience. it is a fundmental problem in today’s world, a freshing intellectual understanding of the truth that lacks the validation of experience. i mean if you don’t ask yourself these types of questions late at night, than when are these questions approraite to an audience of one. i struggle of these basic questions over and over again even though on one level i already know the anwers. but i do appreaciate the subtley of a refined answer. i guess that’s the whole point of all these intellectual exercises; that the grosss basic answer will only get you so far.
