wicked tongue

something that i’ve always known but never realized just how potent it can be has been my wicked tongue. words do hurt and i’ve regretted a number of things i’ve said in the past couple of months. just today, i got a reminder about how wicked i can be. and in my position, as a somewhat respectable fellow, my words cut deeper. and that is the point of all my meditation. to learn to control my emotions in the most intense arguements. so, it’s readily apparent that I still have a long way to go.

2003-12-11T21:15:23-08:00Tags: |
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back from the void

it was a bad start to a retreat when we got a ticket going up to the joint. and when we got there at 8pm and had some dinner at resort’s restuarnt, we knew it was going to be a long painful week. in other words, the conditions weren’t auspices at all for a fruitful retreat from the maddness in our minds. i guess i could point out all the reaons why i didn’t meet my expectation but i know better to over analyze farming scenarios like these. although the weeds weren’t pluck as much as my […]

2003-12-07T22:57:59-08:00Tags: |
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back into training

i guess the last time was at a retreat was 6 months ago and i need to go real bad. my attention span has been totally short circuited. i can barely meditated for more than 20 mins and 2 or 3 times a week at most. far cry from anything consistent and meaningful. at least i am sticking with my committment to attend two retreats a year. at some point, my yoga and meditition practice will finally ‘click’ and doing every day will be as natural as taking a piss. interestingly enough, i feel like most of […]

2003-11-28T01:14:14-08:00Tags: |
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simply brilliant

i’ve only two concerts so far this year but it’s all i need to see if it’s at the calibur of damien rice and sigur ros. i just find it so amazing when people go on stage and perform with the kind of passion that people would only reserve for great sex. they had the sweet combination of the sultry sexy female vocalist, the gorgeously sad violin, the whiny passionate male vocals that just came together like two bodies that melt together on a cold winter night. and they even covered a nina simone song! to be […]

2014-12-31T10:29:21-08:00Tags: |
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reflections about nothing

it’s been a year since i took broke away from the corporate system completely and life has come full circle. i find myself in a state of intimate turmoil, fiscal weakness and mental overload. the repetitive days seem deceptively simple enough. wake up. focus for 10 hours. loss focus for 3 hours. wash. document. sleep. it’s in a nutshell kinda of living. some days i rejoice in the simplicity of it all and other days, i wonder how long i can put up with this passive agressive intensity. funny enough, what i wrote down a year ago […]

2003-11-17T01:04:40-08:00Tags: |
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