i had to be a good son today and make my pilgrimage to houston to see my father while i was in the state of texas. sadly, i was still dragging my feet about visiting him at the airport and i haven’t seen in probably at least 4 years. i actually called him from the austin airport to see if he was going to be around, otherwise i could have had an easy escape. of course i am glad that i went to see him because his age is beginning to really catch up to him. i […]
if i were to put it on relative context, i know what i am about to comment on is rather whimpy, but nonetheless challenging enough for me. i sometimes entertain the idea that i am generally not good with social relationships with others but it sounds too much like a cop out to me. yes, it’s challenaging for me to deal with ‘difficult’ persons but ulimately, it is a reflection of yourself on how you deal with these situations. i realize that this is one of my key weakness as a person as well as my role […]
got an email from an older friend on a similar path. what is all this seperation we ask. Great Art and Great Dharma The artist’s dilemma and the meditator’s are, in a deep sense, equivalent. Both are repeatedly willing to confront an unknown and to risk a response that they cannot predict or control. Both are disciplined in skills that allow them to remain focused on their task and to express their response in a way that will illuminate the dilemma they share with others. And both are liable to similar outcomes. The artist’s work is prone […]
refreshing but most likely short lived like my every other desire that has to do woman. as soon as i saw her last night, there was something that i was in love with but could’t exactly place it yet. but after some editing and scrutiny, i’ve decided that she looks like tilda swinton, hence my instant liking. it’s something about the andrgous and sharp facial features that tickle my fancy. also alien alike and scary in some respects but at the time, an elvish quality that is quite exotic. i gave her […]
tonight, i solved the final piece in the equation for total departure sequence. no longer do i have to be bound by the phyiscal limits of a Local Area Network. it sounds terrible stupid, but in the same way, all the purging i am going throw is also part of my process to disengage from this overly gorgeous dream that i experience on a daily basis. naturally, any man of reputable worth does not the need likes of technological wonders for him to keep him bind into two opposing worlds but like many cowards before me, i […]