It’s hardly surprising that i don’t have much time for blogging these days. Refer to a couple of entries ago and the reasons continue to pile on. Regardless, i am taking advantage of the ‘down’ time on my flight back to consider this and that. In my new life, her kids are slowly beginning to accept me, while I slowly figure out how to best play my role in this act called parenting. For now, i mostly observe their interactions and make suggestions on my perception. I can’t suspect being able to really influence much at this […]

it’s hard to encapsulate the significant of the last several months in 15 mins or less. i am still quite amazed on so many levels. at the end of the day, it’s hard to express it all without getting all silly with big words; which invariably always fails to express anything but my inablity to express. furthermore, it seems much easier to express suffering as others seem more empathic. expressing joy either jinxs it or people will wonder what planet your on. the complication of the joy is further reason why i keep censoring myself. the issue […]

so begins my transition to a "new" life where i am surround by kids and a good night’s rest in the arms of my lover. i quite productive as i was able to focus on different aspects of my work when i am not surrounded by the office rituals. i joked that my commute is now 2000 miles but at least i get to work at home and participate in the great act of ‘raising kids’. granted, it’s still a bit awkward right now because i just got promoted from being a friend to special friend and […]

If i sound redundant
If i can’t stop
Being inspired
To express beyond
My own limits

One day I will find
The perfect expression
for my love
until that day
i beg for forgiveness
for every grain of sand
on every beach
is insufficient
to fill the vastness
of my love
for you.

we’re taking pause from our nightly late night conversations and although i still want her to call, i know it’s good for us to give each other some space. naturally, the irony is that there is exactly 2048 miles of space between us. even though we have making fairly regular communication, i am still debating on the value of technology to bring intimdate relationships ‘closer’. for some reason, i like to draw the line at email as a channel of communication that can convey the thoughtfullness of letters while having the expedincy that makes it convienent. still, […]