it didn’t quite register throughout the day until we spoke on the phone later that day. she had found my first email to her, dated Oct 19th. So it’s actually hard to believe that it was exactly a year ago that we hung out for the first time. I dug up this photo of her from that day. The irony of our relationship is downright silly. it’s amazing how much can transpire in a year. or a month for that matter. Interestingly enough, we meet exactly one month before […]
i didn’t think it would happen so abruptly in light for the recent departures but again, it’s hardly surprising to me. i guess this was always something that was in the back of my mind and i figure it would be a matter of timing. In hindsight, i am sure the timing is appropriate given all the changes in the past year. Certainly, it’s hard to me not to consider it in a personal manner. i wouldn’t go as far as to say that it is a personal failure but it’s not too far from that benchmark. […]
so, the blur has reignited my interest in rumi and undoubtedly his words and spirit simply splendid. it will be another week before i see my beloved and i am preparing my fragile vile. as usual, we have been blowing on the flame of love and lust and our desire for each other scorches us frequently. and so i stumbled upon an appropriate passage from rumi Gamble everything for love, if you’re a true human being. If not, leave this gathering. Half-heartedness doesn’t reach ito majesty. You set out to find God, but then you keep stopping […]
i would like to think that by now i would be able to create more balance in my life. with her presence in my life it has been painfully more obvious that there isn’t balance. she points it out often on how distracted i am and i can’t exactly argue with her. overall, i still feel like my life is not so out of whack but on a daily basis, i know i am not living a healthy lifetstyle. given that i am in control of my work, it’s ironic that i feel so out of control. […]
there should be more moments like this, when you smile deep inside. too often days go by like minutes and it takes a hammer to force the experience into a vivid present moment. undoubtedly, her presence in my life has allow me to experience those precious moments over and over again. granted it may be due to the fact that we only get to see each other ever so often but regardless it does nothing to belittle it. from one unreasonable endeavor into yet another and to think i am still thinking small. btw, being that it’s […]