my girlfriend asked where i am with my growth plans and in my usual smartass attitude, i responded that i am 20% at 4 quadrants. it was smart ass but i did give serious thought into the manner. it’s usually on my mind in some form these days because everyone knows that i am not living to the fullest. it would be wrong for me to say that i am working through the ‘grind’ of it but sometimes it feels that way. ultimately i see it as a foundation for other endeavors but the question becomes how […]

it’s been a long time but i must push myself tonight. it’s been a while since i am working at home but luckily i got pulled away from the office by an old friend. i had totally forgot that he was flying in today but more likely i was repressing the fact that i didn’t want to deal with the issue. alas, the rationality of men and the wisdom of maturity forgave my action to a degree of cordial reunions. it’s a small milestone but a necessary one as our relationship moves forward. i always thought that […]

there are too many days that i don’t care for photography. and i am not talking about the fact that the business of photography that makes me apathetic towards it. although that aspect contributes to my apathy, there is something deeper that naws away at me. if i would so kind as to let my intuition speaks it part, i would dare say that it’s my general repulsion towards the outer beauty that fuels that apathy. the tension lies in my active outer act of seeking beauty and my dormant inspiration to cultivate and recognize inner beauty. […]