most almost regrettably, there are times when i feel and know how useless i am to the human race. being a good person doesn’t mean much when it benefits no one. why am i thinking about this. one, i been photographing a conference about community development and how the people that work in this sector affect the lives of the people they work in behalf of. and secondly, my failure to comfort her in her times of need has illustrated my graping deficiency the manifest of belief. one day. the self hatred will imploded like a black […]

i live on the fumes of passion, that which sustains on those lonely nights in a 4500 sq ft studio. while the cocteau twins drown any possibility of deep thoughts, i savior the polarized emotions by which they evoke. bearly a year ago i was probably near the end of my rope with the passion for the ‘work’ and if it wasn’t for her, i would be incredibly bitter by my own actions. alas, things continue to work out as they ‘should’ and i continue to stumble on the high road of "purpose". with 150% of the […]

i was at my multi tasking best this weekend while i watched the matrix with commentaries by cornel west and ken wilbur on one monitor and post process on the other. a friend had just forward an article to me from the nytimes about the fallacy of efficiency in a multitasking environment. it is not without irony that the more ‘efficient’ i feel the less spiritual i am. undoubtedly i have reach saturation on matters of productivity, if not significant diminishing returns. this i know yet i continue to caught in my habitual patterns. so the question […]