it’s been a very long time since i felt the intensity of joy and fear all mixed up to an undoubtedly unforgettable experience. then again, most of these days are spent in a fairly forget experience of seemingly endless toil. intense experiences such as these do shake the foundation of experential construct. it’s far too easy to give into the fear of ill fated perceptions and let reality degenrate to a series of endless bad jokes. but i past the test again with somewhat of flying colors, if not, then at least with great tears of joy. […]

i was suppose to be just an innocent bystander in it all but i became less than innocent this week. i wouldn’t go as far to say that i was a participant in the conversation but somehow i felt that he influence something that i shouldn’t not have. in all my seperate converations with each respective party, i tried not to take any side but adovcated honesty and take a longer term perspective on the situation at hand. i suggested trying to understand the root of the ‘issue’ and not simply react to the emotional upheavals. for […]