i live on the fumes of passion, that which sustains on those lonely nights in a 4500 sq ft studio. while the cocteau twins drown any possibility of deep thoughts, i savior the polarized emotions by which they evoke. bearly a year ago i was probably near the end of my rope with the passion for the ‘work’ and if it wasn’t for her, i would be incredibly bitter by my own actions. alas, things continue to work out as they ‘should’ and i continue to stumble on the high road of "purpose". with 150% of the […]

i was at my multi tasking best this weekend while i watched the matrix with commentaries by cornel west and ken wilbur on one monitor and post process on the other. a friend had just forward an article to me from the nytimes about the fallacy of efficiency in a multitasking environment. it is not without irony that the more ‘efficient’ i feel the less spiritual i am. undoubtedly i have reach saturation on matters of productivity, if not significant diminishing returns. this i know yet i continue to caught in my habitual patterns. so the question […]

my girlfriend asked where i am with my growth plans and in my usual smartass attitude, i responded that i am 20% at 4 quadrants. it was smart ass but i did give serious thought into the manner. it’s usually on my mind in some form these days because everyone knows that i am not living to the fullest. it would be wrong for me to say that i am working through the ‘grind’ of it but sometimes it feels that way. ultimately i see it as a foundation for other endeavors but the question becomes how […]