just watched the movie the next 3 days, a remake of a french movie with hollywood’s heavy hand. slow but pretty good and like most things i visually consume, i wonder how much of the ideas they explore really apply to my life/thinking. although i would have to believe that that kind of love for your wife exist, i can’t help but wonder what i am ‘missing’ because i don’t feel that way. so much of culture keep re enforcing these idealized concepts that invariably make most of us feel like shit when we don’t have it. naturally, it is possible to go beyond that line of reasoning and not get caught that line of thought but it’s harder done than said. still, there was one part of the movie that i wholly connected with was about the child. it is only know i can i appreciate at when lengths parents will go for their children. rarely do most of us are confronted with the big hairy scenarios where we can become heroes and do the right thing for our children despite the odds. what started as the idea of the big hole that i was trying to fill in my life ended no where. let’s just say, that a big hole exists and it’s desperately looking for a for a hole in partner.